Thursday, September 16, 2010

This is the street I live off of...

So the days are getting fuller...
We start off with getting up at 6am, not so bad depending on how late everyone stays up,
about 15 of us girls share one bathroom to get ready in the morning.
We walk down the hills and through the forest for about 30min, until you reach the water castle, where breakfast goes from 7 to 7:30.
Lots of yogurt and cereal, its my favorite meal of the day.
We have morning prayer or worship at 8:30 and usually lecture of some sort after that.
I eat with the staff because my work hours are when everyone else eats.
I am on a team of 5 people and we prepare the lunch for the next day so if something taste strange it may or may not have been our fault.
We peel vegetables and peel and more peeling.
Then I have some free time to usually go to the store or go back to the appt.
Until I meet with my art track at 4:30 till dinner at 6.
After that the day looks different depending on how tired I am.
After walking back usually I eat chocolate ha ha cause that's what you do in Germany.

So thats not a very poetic way to say what my day looks like, but it's not always poetic.
There are many hours of being tired and hard work.
For anyone reading this it's not always a bed of roses or an adventure.
What God is doing here is all together beautiful and delicately painful...
He is moving we can all see that.
But sometimes he is moving stuff around inside of you and it can be confusing and emotional. Sometimes your enthralled by the adventure and the people.
And other moments you would give anything to be home in the arms of someone you know loves you. Its not easy my friends I wish that I could say in the past two weeks its all been magic and sunshine. But it's simply not true. When God is preparing you for something, molding you, or changing you it may not feel very good a lot of the times.
And in these moments are when you surrender. When you allow yourself to be vulnerable within his sight or in the sight of others.
You learn that when your alone he is there.
You learn that when you feel unsatisfied he has the power to fulfill you.
I'm no where near there but I can see us both trying.
You remind yourself of simple wisdom...
He gave me this chap psalm 37,
one day when I was swimming in desires unmet.
He met me there and he knew the only verse that would really penetrate my heart. He knew how to romance me. He knew what I needed to hear and he gave it.
A promise, my promise:
Psalm 37:3-7

3Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.

5Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this:

6 He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

7Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him.


Aunt Kim said...

We are following you on your journey. I am thankful for your many markers, so we can share the vision and the reality of what God is showing you. This last post is amazing and all I could say at the end was "Wow, and AMEN!"

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