I think I try to hard to be someone whose creative warm and interesting.
I want to have deep jumping thoughts that make you want more of me
today i feel i have a hard heart a heart that needs love
i haven't worn make up for days and its not cause i feel more beautiful in my natural
i have these rushes of believing in myself and those dreams i carry
but today iv not had one of those rushes
maybe that makes me normal
but iv never taken fondly to normal
and i don't really want to be considered that
id rather be a rebel seductive
anything but normal
i entertain the idea that i may be warm captivating inspiring
but today i don't feel those either
and no one would know it because i wear a perfectly done up smile
iv always got another thing coming undone
and its taken me over
iv had person after person tell me your young
its ok your not married or don't have your dreams
you have so much time
but the problem is i know so clearly what i want
and its so very hard to stand by and watch your vivid dreams and hopes sit in the back seat of your life
i carry them along and it weighs me down
they are so beautiful i want nothing more than to pave the road with my dreams and run wildly across it
painting the scenery with the kisses of my soul
I think about living so much
ever since i was a little girl swinging into the clouds wondering about my future
im still that little girl thinking about my future
well what about now
what about the wind that rushes around my curls?
what about the soft spring smells as i swing?
what about today?
how do i let my dreams dance around even if im not perfect
or if my dreams really aren't "coming true"
can i accept if i never live the way iv dreamt?